For many reasons, I have been quite grumpy for the past few days. 

Everything seems to be going wrong lately: my mac died, I had no internet for a whole week, I had to rush my dsc assignment because of this, I didn’t back up my laptop so I lost a lot of my notes, music, photos, I didn’t get a convention ticket in time, I’m sick… And there’s something else, which is bothering me the most, but I can’t talk about it. Not when certain people I know read this. 

I was in such a bad mood this morning; I’m glad there was no one around. I like to be by myself when I’m like this, because it saves people from having to put up with me when I’m askaljghalfgk. All the while the little voice in my head was all like: “Think positive Huyen! Things aren’t so bad” … And then the grumpy Huyen mentally gunned down that annoying chirpy one, because part of me is just so sick of trying to be happy and optimistic all the damn time. 

It’s just too hard. At least it feels like it is, right now anyway. Haha I’m pretty sure the main reason I’m feeling like this is because I’ve got a cold. I haven’t had any medicine though.. I realised the other day that I actually haven’t taken any medicine at all for about 2 years because I like to pretend that I’m tougher than I actually am..

My immunity is super high though. 926 or whatever, according to the blood tests we did last year. Not sure what this is measuring but normally it should be in the 40s. I guess this is why I hardly ever get sick :D Except for right now lol

And yes, although lots of little things have gotten me down lately, at the end of the day, if I look hard enough, there are still so many things that can put a smile on my face: all the cute things my parents say and do for me, getting my mac back, the sun yesterday, SALE$, sleeping in, songs that you just can’t listen to without smiling, having people care about my problems enough to try and help out more than they need to, friends going out of their way to make me happy, funny youtube videos hahaha

I guess what I am trying to say is that I am too young to be worrying about that one thing I can’t talk about. Whatever happens, happens. And even though some things suck now I have faith that everything will work out for the best. 

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